I feel like I haven't made a proper blog entry for more than a month now. I've been very busy, but honestly so much has happened that I haven't put an entry in, cause I wanted to get it all right. I realised if I don't just bloody say what needs to be said, that I am never going to do it.
In June I did the advanced landmark course and I also did the Anthony Robbins, "Unleash the Power Within" weekend seminar. So yes I have been a real course guru and doing lots of work on myself. Honestly, its really hard work to have to work through all your shit! Its would be so easy to just say, "you know what!!... thats all such crap! Who needs this rubbish anyway? Its just bloody brainwashing by a bunch of happy clappy idiots who think they are going to find the meaning of life! That these idiots have to get together in groups because they are not good or strong enough to do it by themselves. That I am better than this, I don't need all this rubbish in my head and deal with problems my own way!
Well, all I can say is, if thats what you want to believe, then good for you! But I challenge you to challenge yourself. I challenge you to take the time, strength and courage to face yourself, to REALLY look deep within yourself and see what there is to see! If at the end you feel no different, then I applaud you for at least having the courage to face yourself and your deepest, darkest fears. If you can truly do that being 100% honest within yourself, no lies, and face up to who you try and hide inside then I would love to shake your hand and talk like old friends how amazing it is to be so complete.
I am not saying that I faced everything I need to face, but I have started and have tried not to worry about looking bad or the fool. For all I know there are things buried deep that I have yet to uncover, and they may be shocking truths or little seemingly inconsequential things, but they will all have an immense effect on who I am and my life.
Nena O'Neil
"If we do not rise to the challenge of our unique capacity to shape our lives, to seek the kinds of growth that we find individually fulfilling, then we can have no security: we will live in a world of sham, in which our selves are determined by the will of others, in which we will be constantly buffeted and increasingly isolated by the changes round us."










